With things that is happening all around me, with decisions to make, i can't find myself room to breath. Maybe i just mess everything up in my own mind thinking that i could handle all the words coming to me. It may be too early to state something but im pretty sure of what i want. I couldn't be more happy then being with what i've been wanting all along. Maybe it was a rush maybe it was a trip of mind or maybe by the slip of tongue everything came to this situation but i've never regret planning it all up cause at least i know i was prepared for these.

Someone said, finally i've found the happiness in my life. And yes. I did. Maybe the wait was worth waiting. And maybe he was made for me. I just don't know. But all i know is that he really makes me realise what feelings is all about. And when looking to my situation now, some how it relates to "Syurga Cinta". I watch that movie 4-5 times and everytime i watch it i just couldn't stop crying. Maybe it was a heart breaking movie or in some ways, the movie could be related to mine.

Had a conversation with boyfriend just now planning about somethings in future, and it was really brain storming moment for me. We had so much options to choose but then something kept pulling me back. Maybe it was too early or maybe i just dunwan to hit the line before my siblings do. Come to think of it, it wasn't right to have such situation where we are officially togather but i'm not the one who will be taking care everything of him. So that option is definitely out.

And after few options and decision making we finally agree to something that will not be stated here. Sorry.
But anyway, the plan is still under planning and would be comfirmed after my sister's. So happy2 gitu..

Since his whole family has accept me and mine has accept him so we just dun wish to drag it any further or longer. Coz the longer it is the more shits is gonna happen. So better make it official. Just that now, we are busy preparing my sister's biggest day which probably happening on march. Then you guys can get ready to listen to mine.

Yeah. No more shits. No more freaking enjoyments. Come to think of it, i'm already so sick of everthing. Although im only 20, AT LEAST i've tried everything by the name of enjoyment. Been to clubs, been heavily drunk, been stay out all night, done the most wildest things of enjoyment and so i have no reason to be hanky panky after this. Unless i'm the type of girl who claims to have not been to such places, never touch an alchohol or been so goody-home-girl to everyone, stick to 1 boyfriend, but on dark side i've been playing behind my boyfriend's back. No. I have no time to do all that.

Been there and done it so no comments about nightlife entertainment k.

I already have everything what i want in life.. So now time to relax and settle down. So yeah..Syimah is settling down soon.

I love my boyfriend and you can suck on that. ♥