It comes to a peak of the point when someone actually asked about your future state. About being ready of something that would change your entire life and situation. I was like standing on a cliff whereby i could anytime by then trip and fell to decisions making. I know it's gonna be hard to make such life change in such a short time but then i'm pretty sure i was ready.


I couldn't  find myself any better then just being into that situation. Changing my life status is going to be a very big impact to everything that is going on right now. Although this has almost happened last time, but i refused to coz i wasn't sure of what actually is lacking that moment of time.


I was ready, but something pulled me back. My feelings, my mind and my mum's words.. Everybody pulled me back coz nobody wants to see me hurt as much as what they already have seen.


And yesterday, the question actually made my heart beat so fast and the 1st thing that came to my mind was my past. I know they have accepted me. And shockingly she did too. I didnt want any apology for what she thought of me last time. She didn't make any mistakes. She opened my mind to think out of the box, she made me feel she actually do concern about the future of mine, with you.


And i swear, i'm so greatful to that. Somehow i feel welcome to be part of everything now although it's not official as in official official. At least i could say that i have another family which really cares about me too. Including a caring other half.


Let time tell the situation itself. I'm willing to take any risk as long as i'm stick to something that i've wanted for so long. Although i've mention the word "unfair" to HIM last night, i'm still thankful that at least for a moment in my life i actually could experience such happiness coming from another family.


And she did mention about who's gonna take responsibility of her, and yeah, you said WE could. I'm sure we can. And as much as you love her, i'm beginning to love her as much too. I'm already regarding her like my very own although all these while it's been just words. I still do love her.


And whatever i wanted in life now, i've found them. But yet to owned them as mine. Until the day when the decisions is made then that's when everything could change. I never asked anything more then what i have now, coz all i ever wanted was just being happy with whoever that makes me smile. And that's you and everytime you mention about her.


"I just can't wait to meet her. I can't wait to actually kiss her hand. I can't wait for the moment when she's actually standing infront of me with her open arms accepting me to be part of everything.


Just with 1 request from me,


Please remember the 2 songs we listen last night. The song that you gave me is not suppose to be given to me, and the song that i gave you is meant for you to read the words. Let me say HE's unfair, coz soon he'll show his greatness that he could actually give me the happiness that i wanted for so long..


I ♥ you, them & mine so much...