Syimah'Zara MsBintang @ Blogger
ive been thinking too much now.. too much is going on in my brain.. it felt like there's so much noise wen there's only silent. so much heat wen wat's left were only breeze..maybe its true tat sum1 said sooner or later if i maintain myself tiz way, i could go insane, but i actually prefer it thiz way. avoiding every1. not all. almost every1.
i kept telling myself, no point hanging on, move on. i did. but it hurts. so much tat i felt so strong not only in my heart but in my blood. everything is aching. me myself my all.
i dunno y im good at giving ppl advices but wen it cums to my own self, im always at lost. stuck in a position whr i find it so easy yet so hard to choose..
it was my mstake for sure. for giving the chance 2 get to knw, get close, attracted, fall in love, n finally im on the ground..why[?] coz basically i fell for sum1 who doesnt wan to catch me. it already obvious in the beginning. he's wasnt the 1 for me. tapi asl aku nie degil sgt...? i really dun understand. he has got nothing tat makes me attract to him physically, he's just a very nice guy wen i got to knw him in the beginning..
but...
it's true wat people say...it's always good in d beginning...but once u step into a relationship, everything change. and i mean EVERYTHING.
i just dunno wat else to say..it seems everything has tangle up and d only solution is by cutting it off...
if people ask me, do i still love him, the answer is no. get it. NO. SO FOR FUCK SAKE STOP SAYING I STILL HAVE FEELINGS FOR HIM. THE WORD IS DISAPPOINTTED PHM! NOT STILL LOVE...BLARDY GUNDU'S... SERIOUSLY, IT'S GETTING TO MY LAST NERVES, KALAU AKU KATE AKU DAH TK SYG TAKYA NK TAMBAH2 CKP U STILL GOT THE FEELINGS FOR HIM LARH APER KEJADAH TAH, ITS MY FARKING LIFE, I KNW MORE OKEY. STOP PUTTING WORDS INTO MY MOUTH!
okey i just got to emotional i gguess.. but seriously korg better stopit. u r nt helping okey. u r making thing go worse..
dah mls nk type lagik.. im going out wif bestie mazlan to catch a movie @ ps. omg, he's like the only GUY who listen to my story. bukan tambah2 ehkk.. yg korg2 maintain tu mcm jek ah.. pressure sak otak.
sotong!
blog soon.
