Syimah'Zara MsBintang @ Blogger
I felt so terrible yesterday. I made sum1 wait for me for so long and i end up leaving him there. How cruel can i be. Seriously i'm very sorry. I didnt mean to make you wait for me, i didnt mean to leave you there like a dumb jerk. I wanted to go, i want to enjoy myself, but i cant.
mainly its because, yesterday was angah's court date. fucktart. i just dunno what to do. i dun wish to c him. i dun love him anymore like last time, but i do feel concern about his well-being. if he were to be sentenced, who will take care of his granny. that's all. nk harapkn sedare dier yang lain? oh forget it.. anyway's i pray for your safety angah.
but seriously i wanna apologize to mazlan. for keeping him wait for me for few hours, end up i didnt turn up at all. that was my first time actually letting sum1 wait and end up blew them off. i feel so bad. terribly bad. i cant seem to face the world already now. it hurts me too much. okey enough of hurting already. let me tell you about things that made me smile these few days.
sunday 16 august 09,
met acul and starboi @ tangs. acul wanted to treat me for the day, tapi syg nyer, dier peh slenger jumpe aku peh lambat. so i endup turning up @ tangs @ 9pm. had late dinner @ kfc fareast. saw this sum1 very familiar larh kan, he with his gf, so super gedebab. no offense ehk.. tapi seriously, it was funny lar tgok dorg bobal mcm fren2 gituk..but serious ah..tat guy look so familiarr... k dah...went home n on lappy online. made new fren gitukk..
say hello to kecik small. hehe. so super cute lar kan. webcam with him, super fun. unlike any other guy, he's so cheerful. hapi2 ajer, mcm aku.. senyum senyum selalu..hehe..
monday 17 august 09,
i hv hurt my own bestie mazlan. im so sori bro. just lost the mood n wasnt sure hw am i suppose to reject ur invitation treat to catch movie. eventually, stayed home.. rot again.. till so late. i dunno y i was expecting kecik to be online, then he reali was online. hapi siak aku.. so chitchat for a while, he wanted to webcam, but i was malas so no webcam for yesterday. we chat n laugh, then he said he needed sum1 to talk otf. tactic mintak number kan.. lol. i didnt gave mine.. so buat bodo. he sign out.. chat with this guy name aceh. like my sis bf's name gitu. chichat exchange nums coz eventually i knw his fren, ridhwan ((: si annoying. haha.
pass 4 am, shockingly kecik wen sign in again. shock giler, senyum kejap.hehe. this time we chat for almost 2 hrs then he need to sign out psl member kat cyber cafe. n well, exchange numbers. kecohz. he called n we talk for almost 3-4 hrs till so super terang @ 8 am just now..
forgot to add in my post up there, i gave my msn add to my ex boyfie, "khai pendek", for fun. haha. we r nw frenz in tag. cute kan. lol. so gave him my msn add n he ask me wat for i say for msn ler if he wanna add, he said he wasnt sure if its still can use. he was crashing in already so, he need to sign out, end msg conversation he said, "mis ya".. melt siol aku. its been so long since he said that. aku pon reply ah "me too.....ALOT!" hehehe.. and well, he called me dory strawberry, n i called him chocolate mudpie.. sweets! those names were the names we gave each other wen the 1st time we met last year.. aww.. how i miss 20 april 2008~
tapi nah, thinking back how hapi we were last time, i just cant help it to kip saying i miss 20 april to myself, but then flashbacks slaps me hard on the face to realise wat he did in the past.
like i say, people do mistakes and people do change, you'll never know who's the right 1 for you till u realli meet every each one. and only 1 among all could accept the way u r. how touching a factful is tat? giving ppl chance will hurt us, but sooner or later once that person realise how patient we are toward them, they'll realise how meaningful they are towards us.
saaappp..syimah bobal..
k now gtg get ready to mit hidri n frenz. he's treatng me to karaoke babe.. ajak yaya, she work plak. issh!
oh yah! amoi, if u r reading tiz, guess wat... bogey msn ngan aku siol...hahaha..we exchange numbers.. kecoh2..
fun person larh dier. aku suke. suke ajer.. kwn pe..haha.
k outz now. if i take any pics wif hidri n frenz later, will upload tonite kaes.
chalobeteh!
