Sunday, January 25
I hate bumping into people from my past years. Not talking about ex-schoolmates or colleagues but i'm talking about ex-boyfriends.
Can you imagine walking happily then suddenly bump into your ex-partner who ever played with your feelings before.
Or maybe hurt you terribly?
Just look at how they react. Pretending that nothing have happened between you and him before. If you are with your current partner they'll look at you like stranger. I mean they steal glances.
And when you are alone, they'll give you a look expecting you to look at them and give them a big smile and a wave.
I ever experience this few times.
There's this situation i face i guess wen i was in my 16teens, i was walking with my ex bf, Acul. Let's call him [ A ].
Was walking with him then bump into my other ex, Yunos [ Y ].
So like i said, [ Y ] gave me a look like " pls smile and approach me " kind of look.
that particular time i and [ A ] was just friends going to be togather soon, while [ Y ] n i broke up for no particular reason, as far as i could remember, he ask for the break up.
[ Y ] was like so happy to see me, and me, i was like urr.. urr.. speechless.
Not amazed. But in my mind was " Why on earth must i bump into him?? " So bleak!
So i was like expecting [ A ] to pull me away or something but he just stood there and look.
[Y] was talking and talking like there's nothing going on around. So i just listen and smiled.
I guess he got awkward for talking too much, he stopped and ask how am i doing.
All i answer was " Aku nk jln.... " so there was an awkward moment for him. Only for him. Coz i wasnt expecting he would jump infront of me saying hi and stuff.
So he asked for my number, but i didnt know y, maybe i was rushing, i said that i number is still the same.
So after that day, [ Y ] kept msging me asking me questions every hour of the day as if i was still his girl.
Till 1 day i replied him
" Sori uh, Tapi seriously, i would appreciate it klu kau jgn msg aku coz aku reali busy most of the time. and teros trng kau cumer menganggu masa aku. "
I know it sounded rude but i need him to go for good.
he replied,
" tapi euu, i tak dpt luper kan euu sei. i bodo uh lepas kn u mcm tu je. can we start all over again? i promise kali ni i akan jage u ngan baik. i takkan lepas kn u lagi. pls. i rindu u sei.. my adik nk jumpe u. kite sumer rindu u.. "
i really hate that part. the part where guys who dump me end up begging for me to come back.
eventually i ignored his msg. changed my number.
and i tot he's gone then.
few months later, there was this part when i was otw out with a guy who also was into me.
again i bump into [ Y ]. tis time in the bus. we were sitting two seats from the bus driver facing the opposite windows.
so i could clearly see who was coming up the bus. it was [ Y ]
i just feel like kicking him out of the bus coz, he's always the one i saw everytime i'm on a date.
for tiz time i decided pretend not to see him. so i just talk to the guy beside me. and imagine tiz, [ Y ] was sitting 3 seats back facing us.
all i did was just act as if i didnt see him.
he got down the bus not by the 2nd door but he walked infront of me stomping his feet and out of the entrance the door.
i almost laugh my whole lungs out. coz everything was so funny. the way he walk and the face he gave me.
i look out of the bus, and he was staring at me with a guilty-forgive me look. all i did was just smiled-rolled eyes-shook head look.
but i didnt know how he manage to get my new number that time so i was tired of everything i just ignore his msges calls.
for almost 3 to 4 years i have been receiving msges from his siblings and him asking me to be back with him.
and then last year, when i was officially attached to my current bf, again i bump into [ Y ] in the train.
this time it took me 10 minutes to realise it was really him. all along i was joking and laughing around with bf.
i felt somebody was looking at me. you know those feeling like someone staring at you kind of feeling.
so i scan my eyes through each occupied seats, and saw someone really familiar. really2 familiar.
a girl whom i know. and once i turn my eyes to the next person sitting right next to her, seriously i almost scream with my jaw on the floor.
it was [ Y ]. and the girl was his sister.
i suddenly breath very2 fast. and start snuggling around my bf.
but i know [ Y } already saw me. i just ignore him. then wen we reach 1 of the stations, my bf wanted to have a seat. so he pulled me to 2 un-occupied seats.
bad-luck struck!
my seat was opposite [ Y ]'s seat again. tis time i feel very safe coz my bf is the kind of person who, ' if u a guy, approach me saying hi, and i give u a blur look' straight away he knows, tat u r someone that shouldnt be saying hi to me.
i sat very close to bf and have his arms around mine. bf saw that [ Y ] was stealing glances. so my bf whispered to me.
that the guy opposite me is staring at me. i told him i know who the guy was.
then bf start to stare at [ Y ] back. [ Y ] all the way look down, without putting his eye balls up again untill we reach our station.
his sister look at me with a sad look with a teary eye. i just roll my eyes at [ Y ] and walk away with bf.. bf saw before we got out of the train, [ Y ] look up and look at me.
seriously it was so dramatic. hindustani. korean love. hahah!
well, you people might just say, i'm treating him so cruel. he waited for me for years i know. but so wat?
i was together wif him for 2 years plus and we broke up wen i went to ITE. he was in ITE simei and i was in ITE amk.
we didnt quarrel at all in the relationship. but i dunno y he let go of me so easily.. i took 3 months to forget about him. slowly i realise that to him, tiz relationship is meaningless.
how sad!
even though he begged me with thousands of flowers or chocolates or cash, i didnt fall for it. coz once u dump me, u are nobody in my life ever. u dun exist anymore.
thank all mighty ALLAH, i got my 1 and only 1 right now. Mohamed Khairun Ahyar.
We are now heading to our 10th monthsary. i know it is still early to have so much hopes on someone. but sampai biler kan...
i love him he love me. we do mistakes. we forgive each other. thats tat.
its all destine tis way. i'm just accepting the test tat god is giving me.
please make him the last one.
Amin~
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