Saturday, December 27

bf is being such an ass these few days. mcm biase, misunderstanding~ aku kat umah beh ngah edit pic mase kluar ngan bf n photo ku snap at home lah, beh obviously kene kluarkn memory card dari hp pe.. so he called couldnt get thru.. n i didnt realise tat i didnt switch my hp on.. beh he start saying stuff.. nonsense kan...

here's a conversation between me n him via sms.

bf : listen good k.. i dun noe whats got into me k..aft things happened. its hard 4 me 2 trust u nor believe u k.. its not that i really wan things happen like wat i've "prayed" 4 k.. i gt bad dreams abt u n things happended slowly n its kinda show me sumtink.. i noe 1 dae u will do things dat i dun like or even worse u'll play my back.. i dun noe whether me myself tink negatively or wat..i cudnt tell myself either..thlh..niwae i bought u hp so i cud kol u n guess wat? u divert it.. i guess u better throw every single hp dat i bought 4 u k.. i had enuff of ur nonsense.. thanks alot syimah.

me : wat the hell is wrong with u! dah bikin prangai sendiri beh nk carik psl ngan org!

bf : wat da hell wrong with me? didnt i told u rite at the msg? knape skrg nk reply aft i send those msges? hey look. im tired of being such a fool in a relationship k.. if u r tired being wit me. u r free 2 go k.. nie i bukan nk carik psl k.. i dunno whether 2 believe every single word u said or to believe the other party k.. nie lagi nk skola.. huh.. me myownself scared 2 trust myself dat stupid things wun happen. dhlh.. juz leave me alone lah k..

me : skrg nie wats ur problem?! asl suke nah carik psl ngan me? if u already dun trust me, let me gO. sia2 8 bulan nie u waste ur fucking breath wit me! ape lagi yg kurang?! Klu hari2 nk kene tolerate beh i keep givin in, boleh jadi giler u tau tak?! wat's wrong wif u? PARANOID kaper?? ngan pompan sendiri pon nk carik pasal.. if u nt happy wif me, go find sum1 tat can make u happier..d 1 tat is willing to beg u to stay everytime u almost leave her! i know u wan to leave me since long time ago.. akya nk carik pasal agian n again.. the time we spend togather n u say sori n stuff tu sumer i dunno masok otak ke tak! u dun seem 2 be seri.. all u knw is ur feelings! perasaan org lain mcm sampah...

bf : so u really wan 2 go rite? look. i'm scared 2 lose u k mi..

me : then y u keep saying stuff tat i didnt do..u takot kehilangan i, while i'm tired of all the blame u put against me..

bf : i'm sori.. i was juz too scared.. plz dun ever leave me mi...

me : pls stop thinking nonsense lah....

bf : i'm sori... :'(

me : it's ok.. dahla.. u go get some rest k...

bf : ok mi.. thankz.. love u so much mi.. gd nite syg...

aku rase mcm bodo sak.. u see wen i msg like tiz he will say tat i brani kat msg, tapi wen jumpe face to face i cant say it to his face. like WTH... obviously if u infront of me, i would try making things better not make it worse..

it always start with sumtink tat is happening around us, like 1 of this i could still remember, we were watching tv at my crib,

then it was about tiz girl who cheated on her husband coz he refuse to have kids with her although they have been married for 5 years and she knows that her husband has a mistress... the husband left her mistress to stay wif the wife. but then he couldnt accept the fact that his wife has another man. wen she ask for divorce, the husband willingly let his wife go..

so wen my bf watch tiz he start saying, " klu u mcm ni... slamat jln sudah..." and i was like "ape saje je.. bende tak jadi jgn ckp.. phm" then he said "abeh asl? u nk bikin peh..." WTH.... "u ckp bende yg i tak buat itu kirekan u mendoakn 1 day i betol2 buat. nk sgt kaper...!" then he gave me a stare and then we didnt talk for few minutes about 2 hour plus like tat then aku tegor dier.. baru dier nk manja2 alek...

its nt tat i hate my bf or wat la.. cumer " GUYS!!! YOU PEOPLE NEED TO KNOW THE MEANING OF APPRECIATION. YOU CAN'T BUY LOVE WITH YOUR MONEY. AND STOP SAYING THINGS THAT IS NOT EVEN HAPPENING. STATED SOMETHING THAT DOESNT HAPPEN IS THE SAME THING AS YOU ARE PRAYING FOR IT TO HAPPEN. GET THAT IN YOUR BRAINS LAH !!! "

aku pai naik penat nk repeat stuff like tiz.. tiz is nt the 1st, 2nd or the 3rd time we fought... i still could remember number 13th time we quarrelled and tat was last month, aku bukan nk being so calculative lah.. cumer.. u see at time, u wanna know will he ever realise his mistakes eventhough he knows that u are counting the number of time u quarrelled. this month jek dah gado almost every week... forget it...

i dunno how am i going to make him realise tat i'm tired of all the quarrells..

OH GOD PLEASE MAKE HIM OPEN HIS EYES!!! SEDAR LAH..... JGN TUDOH AKU BUKAN2!!!!

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