Friday, October 10
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lets get back to bloggin..
nowadays da mcm mls nk blog kn. although free but i'm so friggin out of words.
but ya i'm so free rite now but still no idea wat to rite..
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lets start with i've just recover from fever past down.
cnt explain y everytime bf has a fever n after few days i'll have 1.
although we dun have any physical cntc or anything still i just got tat fever.
maybe its becoz we r too cloz in our hearts till wen 1 got sick the other 1 will also be sick.. fulahmak!
romantic kape..
so on weds 8th oct shit happens, i quarrel with bf on fon. yeah so i just hung up n divert all calls to my previous number which the simcard is with him.
then as i almost fall asleep as it was 3plus in the morning he just said that he had enuf of me. so he wans to end all this thing up.
and yes tiz is the 8th time he has been asking for break up. although it didnt happen in the previous quarrels so i decided tiz time maybe i had enough of crying and stuff so tats it i agree to it.
although deep in my heart i just love him so much he would nvr understand.
the next day which was ysterday, he msg me saying he regretted wat he said n wants to take his words back.
i'm tired of being a fool to him. he have been asking for breakups n then taking his words back.
and in all 7round of quarrels all tiz while i was like a begger crying to him.
yes i admit.
i was acting like a begger. each fight would last up to 2 or 3 hrswhich means that the duration of me crying.
this time it was diff. i didnt cry. although i was hurt, my eyes were dry but my heart was bleeding heavily..
i kept myself togather.
my calls was still diverted. n he kept msging.
but till it was ard 7.30pm he was at my doorstep.
he now saying it infront of me tat he doesnt want to loose me. he doesnt want me to end tiz relationship.
but all tiz while, as i could remember, i have never ask for a breakup or play behind his back.
so even if we were separated i wouldnt mind saying
"things just didnt go the way we have planned...."
he pulled me hold my hands. i just push every single touch of his. i cnt believe tat i actually did tat.
as i packed every stuff he bought for me infront of him, he just sit by my bed and cried. i had enough of his attitude, but i still love him..
as u can see, i'm nt as mean as i look so i took a tissue wipe his tears and hug him...
i cant bear to loose him. ilovehim oi!!!
so yeah now things back to normal..u ppl must be tinnking my guy in ns how cum can cum my hse..
k. the thing is he took time off from camp as in he can book out for a while but must be back b4 12am tat nite.
so he left just now at 10.30 with his fren hu tompang him on his bike. but sempat smoke 1 stick of cigg with him while waiting for his fren..
so no worries.
syimah & khairun still togather. cnt deny thrs ups n downs in every relationship.
love him and him only kaes....
*muacks*
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