Tuesday, August 12
I have successfully ended my education life early this year. Eventually i didn't do well for my last result. A certificate that i have always dreamt of all my life. A certificate in Digital Media Design. I failed almost all of my modules except for communication skills.
Looking back at all my previous examination results, this was the worse that i have ever gotten. I have always been the apple to my mum's eyes. I have always did so good in all my studies and always passed with flying colors. I got a total of 181 points for my PSLE when i was 12. Then it all start to drop since i went into secondary school.
Its hard for me to familiarise with the mathematical problems. The more i see numbers, i start to stress myself up. It's not my teacher's fault for not giving me extra lessons to make me understand more, its my own mistake for not turning up for all the extra classes. And i can't even concentrate when i'm in class. Every time math class starts that's when i start to yawn. That's when i start to get so sleepy. My brain can't work for mathematics.
Another subject that kills my brain is history. That's the time when i start cursing school and stuff. I remember there was once in my examination papers in secondary 2, the question asked me about Singapore's World War History, i just totally went blank. And the most impossible answer i gave was
"i don't know. i wasn't born at that moment of time. ask my mum."
I didnt realise what i was writing cause like i say, if i dont understand a thing or if i'm not interested, i'll fell asleep. Maybe that point of time, i was in my lala land so i just scribble what came to my mind. I remember, i got into a really big trouble by my teacher. But when my mum got to know about it, she just laugh it out loud.
But when i sat for my "N" level i really try my best on my better subjects. I concentrate on subjects that could help me go another step further. I passed but my attendance pull me down. I was to make a choice, to repeat my sec 4 life or move on to ITE. So i took a step to ITE. A place where i could actually achieve my dreams. A place that gives me the opportunity to go a step higher.
Studies was nothing to me last time. I don't find it important for me. I'm just interested in design and arts. So basically all i need is experience and some learning on these. But in school they start teaching things that i don't even need to know. I don't need to learn maths, history or science in art. Creativity.
But when i got into ITE, i blew the chances away.
I took things for granted. I turn up for school as and when i want to. In the end all my grades drop and i fail. I didn't get to go to Polythecnic. Instead i end up here. Stuck in my own life. I regret for not concentrating. Achieving my grades was easy but i blew those chances away. Looking back at everything, i could have gone further by now. My mistake.
Opportunity is always there for us but we totally took them for granted. Maybe i didn't like those subjects but still, i have interest for the other 1. So why didn't i concentrate to it? That's where all my mistake lies.. Achieve what we have interest in. We lead our own lifes. We make our own choices. If we didn't achieve what we want don't blame other's. Look back and realize our own mistake. And there's always time for us to mend it.
If only i didn't waste my time..... School is the best in someone's life. Trust me. Don't waste the opportunity to study what you are interested in. Cause if you did, you'll start to regret like i did.
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