Tuesday, June 17
I dun actually know whats this post is for. maybe i'm just too dead bored at hm. i woke up just now very late coz obviously i slept preety late. i didnt slept yesterday nite, so end up sleeping tiz afternoon. n i woke up around 4pm. i know thats quite late but thats the only thing i could do to past the time faster.
i duno whats got into me tiz few days. i just dun feel like going out or msging anyone except my guy. but then he is serving ns so he's practically bz doing his workouts thr at jalan bahar. so i'll be entertaining myself n will only receive his msg wen he's free. usually i get bored very easily n tend to hang out or msg sum ppl just to tok to me abt crappy things. but i was so diff now. i dun feel like going out eventhough i have cash more enuf to go shopping or club, or just chill at starbucks which i usually does last time. but nw i rather rot at home sampai tumboh cendawan or maybe just get berabok.
obviously i dun just eat sleep n blog all day long, i'm like a housewife now. i clean the house, wash the laundry, scrub the toilet n sometimes cook. not always tat i cook but sumtimes.. coz my stepdad is always the 1 who will cook. so i would only do so if i feel like eating sumthing to myself. even wen my stepdad serves us dinner i dun usually eat like a pig or sumthing. if i feel like eating then i do so. sometimes i could even hold my appetite up to 3 days. wierd enuf. maybe its because i want my slim figure back so badly. aku takla gemok sgt kan, only that i have belly fat.
tapi dady say he dunwan me get too skinny. yelah.. i will look like tiang lampu. i also dunwan like tat. rumours will say, "wei mataer kau tak kasi kau cukop mkn pe?"
oh pls... he's the happiest thing tat ever happened to my life. what he has given me is more then enuf ok. so i dun thing he's the reason if i get anorexic. lol...
i dunno wat i should do to lose my belly fat. boncet kan cute tapi wat if i look like gajah kene ikat if i never do sumtink abt it??
watever. i didnt eat not because i want to lose weight ok. i just dun have the appetite. tapi pelik ah, wen dady bookout, i feel like eat eat n eat wif him. maybe he's the reason im eating. c wat i mean dier kasi aku cukop mkn. haha. ok it may not be because of him, but his happiness n sincerity is tat makes me full n happy till i dun even need food.
aww~ i just so appreaciate his existance sei. i dunno wat i will do without him. maybe mati ah.
no reason y i should live if he's no longer wan to be wif me. so tats the reason y i appreaciate him. not only tat, he has done the biggest sacrifice tat no other man can do. maybe thr is, but not all. he is one of them n im lucky enuf to found him. n im sure he is very much happy too, to be accepted by my whole family not only accepted, but also loved n trusted by them. my heart stops beating a moment wenever i c him, n he always make me smile wen im crying sad.
dady, mami sayang u bynk2 larh tao.and dun forget, mami will wait for u no matter how long it will take n mi will always besabar ngan org2 yg try to destroy our happy relationship. dun worri dy, mi wont listen to dorg. they are like nyamok2 sesat yg sedot darah org but if we hv patience enuf, the pain will go away. and there's always a way to get rid of these pest. SHEILTOX!...
muahahahha.
ok. miss u always dady. will be waiting for ur return...
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